ALITTE ABOUT ME

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i was born in 1980 in Fort Lauderdale, Fl. My mother raised me by herself since i was 6 months old. My father was involved in with men most people would be scared to be in the same room with. Unfortunately he got himself into a bad situation where he was forced to make a decision that had him executed when i was baby. My mother did her best to raise me with what she had, so i never fault her for the life style i choose. At the same time i don’t regret either. I’ve made some bad choices in my life but I’ve always tried to make them my problem and not anyone else. See, even though i was an addict at one point in my life i always cared deeply for people that were close to me or in need. My mother always said i cared to much most of the time, but i take pride in that now. Especially in the world we live in today. Now i could sit here and tell you about how I spent a good amount of time locked up even as a juvenile or how i would do what i had to do to get high or how i jumped from couch to couch running either from myself or the law, but everyones heard the stories before. every addicts story is the same. what i want to tell you is what i learned from my journey. Life can show you the most beautiful things you’ve ever seen, i was caught up in my addiction trying to fill a whole that was impossible to fill. to me its the same as waking up every morning at the same time to go to the same job you hate to spend most of your day working for a company that doesn’t even care about you. and that happens for most of your life. I’ve been on both sides of the spectrum. they both never filled the whole. i needed a change. So I moved to Pennsylvania to get away if you must. Most importantly left my old life behind and haven’t looked back since. Did i mention I’m a father so my connection is still there, but thats it. I met some one here I truly love and care about that got sick and tired of hearing me say how beautiful everything is and stuck a camera in my hand and said press this when you get that feeling. i know for a fact that I’ve watched more movies then anyone i know and my girlfriend says i get my eye from watching the cinematography over and over again.  My first choice was abandoned buildings, cause as kids we used to hang out and get into trouble in these places. lots of fun by the way. when i took a still i had this gut feeling it was right. i love that feeling. the beauty in it, ya know? I’m not sure how to explain it but its a personal feeling that i like to share with people through my photography. Ever since I crawled away from my selfish drug and money induced life style I’ve learned how to be responsible and accountable for my actions. I’ve also learned that its the small things in life that are most important, but most importantly what I’ve been through in my life Ive learned how to capture the beauty in Chaos.